"There are some things about myself I can’t explain to anyone.
There are some things I don’t understand at all.
I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after.
I don’t know what my strengths are or what I’m supposed to do about them.
But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail the whole thing gets scary.
And if I get scared I can only think about myself.
I become really self-centered, and without meaning to, I hurt people.
So I’m not such a wonderful human being."
Haruki Murakami