"There are some things about myself I can’t explain to anyone. 

There are some things I don’t understand at all. 

I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after. 

I don’t know what my strengths are or what I’m supposed to do about them. 

But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail the whole thing gets scary. 

And if I get scared I can only think about myself. 

I become really self-centered, and without meaning to, I hurt people. 

So I’m not such a wonderful human being."
Haruki Murakami